A stupid Love.

Readers, remember the first thing I post here? I did post about a guy right ? yeahh I do like him, but USED to coz when we befriend each other and get to know each other, I USED to think that "YEAH, HE'S A GOOD MAN" coz he is bad on the outside but warm in the inside, the way he texted sjaa mcm a lil bit kasar .. but when we call each other, talk about stupid things and slalu mention this quotes of his's "bila masa jua inda" and my quote " bila masa juwa awu " hahahaa mcm apa kami ah .. Yeah I miss that moment .. mcm bisaii wa kami ah .. ntah ihh .. n ea nie mcm jahat d luar sja waa tpii benarnyaa bek yatah aqu suka ... kcian ea mcm people hate ea mostly nya gurls psal they find him annoying but benarnya ea baik, caring and suka becali, HAHAHA hmmm yatah aqu tnguu batah2 untk ea .. aqu nie mun dah suka urg, aqu suka sja ... batah pebaik qu tnguu that guy untk sama2 aquu .. heee but then ea changed .... and i don't like it, bnyak2 kali pulang dh eaa nyakiti aqu, tpiii aqu babal (;0 mcm I said earlier aqu memang mun dh suka atuu , stick .... huhh kelemahan qu kh tuu ;\

N yeah he changed bhh .. mcm kdg2 ea sngja buat aqu sakit ati, menjeleskan dgan sgajaa la cmtuu ;D huu .. tpi aquu benar lang sakit ati kdg2 nangesh2 g tuuu.. tpi mun udah ok, bleq qu smulaa rah nya ... aqu nie stupid kh ;\ hmphtt ... n then satu hari niee ea proposed .. through msn laa..I know this is what I have been waiting dri lama sudahh .. but don't know why, hati qu berpaling .. maybe pesal he wants to do SEX wiv me sjaa sblum kapel pesal ea nie blik2 dh kena sakiti leh bini2 so ea na mo kapel . so I wait for him ... but then ea mau buat atu dengan aqu walaupun inda kapel ... aqu walaupun kapel na qu kn buat that thing OK ? mun rsa nya diri atuu belum lagi confirm dpat nyanangkan hati qu jgntaah dlu .. so tyme ea proposed tu, aqu blank don't know cana kn react .. HAHA kalinyaa aqu txt ea " gtg, kan belajar, ada tcher, kan jadi budak bek dluu ~ HAHA " then aqu go op9 laa terus tanpa jwap mau menerima or nda ... just let it be mcm atuu ...

Then my friend rah chem lab tnya "kenapa kaw tynn eh", I said 'nadaaa ..' n senyumm* (;0

A gift.

Today, meimeii gave me a necklace.. Its beautiful, ada ELEPHANN, heee, he knows that I love ELEPHANN so muchh ! Its beautiful, adaa mcm small small spaces in the ELEPHANN, mcm holes for diamonds. HAHA bling-blings ;p Though I hate bling blings so much, but nevermind, its a gift from meimeii, awal2 na mauu trima pesal it was like so special packed in a white box and ada ribben warnaa rainbow. Its really CUTEEE ! hahaaha KAWAIEEE ~~ oh yeahh.. he makes me wonder pulang benar pesal Its not my birthday today ... batah lagii kali ahh my birthday .. then then I ASK HIM PESAL APA BGI .. He don't want to answer it, instead of answering it, HE POKE ME ! hahhahha and me, being inda tahan kena poke, triak laa, na jwaa nyaring benar laa, kejut sjaa. HAHAA then I chase him ;p mcm kanak2 kami ahh lari sna siniii ;p wewewewe WELL, its my damn own world kali a, me wants to RAWK IT ON !

p/s : meimeii, I love the necklace I LOVE IT SO MUCH ! thanks (;0 but please please please don't give me gifts lagi .. It makes me rasa bersalah wah pesal ... ntah laa .. huuu *sighh...

A visit to MD.

tadii tengah hari, I plan to go to MD, because I miss RASH, BASIERAA, NANAA, FREAKKY, MY BRO ANGKAT (AJEQ), N SCIENCE1 MATEE <33>so I decide to pay them a visit (;0 n yeahh I go there wivv FIJAAA with the aim that I wann a great BIG day tadii .. well I DID (; but everything gone a lil bit messed up pesal the case between HER and HER bro angkat ..

FIJAAA,
I know ur hurting much inside .. I know my words can't describe what exactly happens inside .. what exactly how u feels .. but I must say that I FEEL SORRY for you, Its not my intention to bring u down to MD to let this happened .. I know I must NOT bring u to MD tadii .. now i FEEL SO BAD .. seeing u CRYING just broke my heart .. I never see u cry before .. n I wann to keep it that way .. You're a very good girl to me, a good friend, a good listener, a good MATE <33>maybe I never say this words to you but I wanna say it NOW :: "Im so lucky having u as my friend but I didn't label u as my friends anymore cause you are my BESTFIEE <33>N u know that I love u right? "

and I was so sad tadii pesal Im looking for my BESTFIEE lama sudah since Form2 in smshasan, the first spot I look for her is where the sciences1 MATE <33>so then I thought she must have gone back home ... That spoils my MOOD a lil bit though but THEN I saw her dlam this room when her bf comes out of that class YEAY ! I approached her with the intention kan surprised her .. but well IM THE ONE YG SURPRISED .. know why ? Because she cried ! the moment she saw me );

I was like in SHOCK don't know what to do ... Her tears fall down to her cheeks, huhu .. why everyone cried hari nie .. she holds my hand n keep on saying these 3 words "I MISS YOU" ......
It breaks my heart ... I know she's lonely there in MD, she always hang-around with US, her friends in KATOK. I cant stand it and cry along too .. and holds her hands back and replied "I MISS YOU TOO" with da BIG smile I always have for HER (;

At 1pm, she got class so I have to let her go .. Tadi kami cerita pesal ME .. haha mostly about ME .. n then the topic pesal "me and meimeii" comes about and .... yeah believe me, we're talking about it .. Its all about this PARTICULAR SUNDAY, he brings me out, for a treat in escapade .. I just say "YES" without much thinking pesal I REALLY THOUGHT THAT HE WILL BRING THE OTHERS TOO ! but guess what, Im the only ONE ! and kami sama c-softyy, they take me dari my home and then we go straight to escapade for lunch .. ON THAT DAY, he treats me nicely .. so nice mcm a couple ;s he prepare the things for my lunch .. mcm chop stick, teaa (even ea tuangkan) .. he even ask me first about what i wnna eat .. he looked at me mcm Im some sort like entah ... -.-" yg penting he don't treat me as a friend at that time -.-" MORE wah .. n then mcm2 happens .. he even nimpang arah my bahu tyme liat wayang -.-" kami liat ceta antuu JGN TEGUR ;s (rating 3/5), kami share the same popcorn bagg, our hand tersentuh bnyk2 kali ... -.-" then he buy me DQ ice-creams, BLIZZARD OREO (my fav ^^.)

Then there goes gossips -.-" My friends love it when Im around with him .. n they expect US to be MORE than friends .. huhhhuu Please GOD, I love him as my friend sjaa .. Baru pesal atu tu, balum lagi pesal d skulah, he always tegur aqu dluu f tjumpa kami2 (his friends) .. awal2 i didn't realize but .. c-Blue mentioned it .. even she said that " when Im (me, mumu) around, Meimei feels so happy .. LIGHTED ... sort of" .................... *sighhh

Please GOD just let me have him as MY BESTFIEE and not more than that... Please.

N then tadi pkul 1 sumthing2... RASH, FIJAAA AND MUMU (;0 go to the MALL.. I treat them some BLIZZARD ICECREAMS hoping that they will cool down a bit and forgets the things that just happened in MD .. then kami pergi arah FOOD-COURT, sitting down there and talk about guys stuff ;p *griinn

Oh yeah, I did mentioned to them about a guy, named JOEE, he is SOOOO DAMN PERASAN ;S he make a move on me and wants me to F**k wivv him and make me pregnant so that he will marry me ! I SAY " FUCK THE WHAT ! " EMOSII qu tadii critaa rah durg pesal guys nowadays UNPOLITE tahap gilaa ;s but but but I did terjmpa a guy, he's cute in his personality, charming, v.polite, warm, friendly, amazing n this what makes him SOOOOO CUTEEEE ! hehe, and I did buy him a chocolate tadi (;0 I wanna say that "I like him" but Im just too scared .. because he's too cute .. Too mahal .. Which makes me want him so much .. I LOIKEY YOUU <33

Then go back at 3pm back to MD. I wanna meet him so I texted him .. He's so shy <33>

Daddy comes at 4pm sharply ! HUHUU i didnt get the time to talk more wiv rashh .. and wivv Fijaa to comfort her ... I still blame myself pesal going to MD tadi ..

Exam Schedule : for the date 14th May09, THURS

8AM - 10AM 9700/31 BIOLOGY 31 2hrs

2PM - 4.30PM 9691/1 COMPUTING 1 2hrs 30mins




p/s : FOR THOSE WHO SITS FOR THIS EXAMS, GOODLUCK !

Exam Fever (;

I have my first exam paper this morning, Math paper1 Pure mathematics 8a.m-9.45a.m. I don't know why, I feel so prepared for it and somehow I feel so light in a way. HAHA kenapa aqu ri nie ah btw ? ;\ not sure but STILL I rawkk on my paper ! Yeahh me love itt ;D

n yeahh.. I got fever..for how many days udaah. I feel like Im dying heree..coughing ALOT, n sneezing ALOT too and selesmaa ;\ makes my nose tersumbat pagi2 ;\ I HATE IT SO MUCHH !

p/s : AND FOR THOSE WHO SITS FOR ANY TEST/EXAM AND YG SEWAKTU DGANNYA, I WISH YOU GUYS THE VERY BEST OF LUCK (; GO FOR A'SES

Change in everything.

Damn eh !! Everything changed. Just because of one guy, everything changed. my life, my love, my style, my yaaah mcm2 la.. I become emo muchh (*sighh) gila nie min cemanie ah. I hate to LOVE lagi.. ntah mcm takut g bhaa kana main kan macam nie a.not exactly kana mainkan, tpii ntah laa things changed ..I dn noe what's up with you..kan marah2 sja..u warn everyone that go between us..they're just my friends kali ahh.. damn kali eh .. i dn noe that you are penjealous bebanar .. damn *sighhh. huuhh i dn noe apa g kn d buat dengan " kita ". but well i dn think there's a word for "kita" anymore in both our dictionary.

Tell me why, why u do this to me? Im not the type of girl that fall for someone and then change easily for another guy.. u make me like this.. why ?? why do u have to COME to my life when everything will turn out to be like this? Im not actually emo but when it comes to YOu, my heart rasa sakit, the pain in my chest that i can barely hold, i want u to feel it...all this comes from YOU, you know that don't chu?

I really wish that we never had conversations together, I really wish you never talk to me privately and makes us close to each other, i really wish kita macam dlu barely know each other, i really wish i had ignore u at that time, i really wish i never open my little heart to you *sighh.
why do u come to me mcam inda bedusa then leave me behind mcm inda kenal,,inda bedusa tah bnar that guy! lols ..

firstly u try to make a move on me, then akhr2 te-kima2x" ohh damn nice of you" realize that i dnt payback psal .. the feeling is still there and I pity myself because falling for a stupid guy like YOU !! yang part bodo-nya, aqu na dpat lepaskn kau atu waa eventhough aqu mcm c pantat ta juwaa mcm buat DAAAA ~ tapii bnarnya aqu ntah uhh .. damn pndai bnar aqu nie menyimpan T.T *bodo nya aqu ! sit sit sit -.-"

the part yg menyedihkan is the part where u called me KIMA slalunya pkai syg2 sgala ;D ohh damn kali !! guys macam kau nie ntah aa patut d ntahh ehh !!